The past six months have been pretty hard. It seems like it always hits me at the most inopportune times. There have been moments when I have wanted to slap pregnant girls/moms for all of their complaining. I know that isn't nice, but it's the truth. It's also true that I will probably find myself complaining about pregnancy and motherhood in the future.
If you are wondering about the title, that is the nickname my sister gave our baby--you know BS for "Baby Sommers." She thought it was hilarious. Then it became terribly ironic when we lost the baby. I remember about four or five weeks after losing the baby thinking to myself, "Did that actually happen? Am I actually this heart broken over someone who didn't have a name? Someone that I technically never met?"
I don't want to make this day too depressing, so I am posting the video we made to announce that we were expecting. We found out we were pregnant on our cruise so we filmed it while we were there. Then we told our parents we wanted to show them our trip (and at the end they got a big surprise). We were going to post it for all of our friends and family, but we found out we had lost the baby about a week before our planned announcement.
I love this video. I love that we captured how excited we were before the bad news came. We worked so hard on this video because we wanted to get it done quickly to show our parents. I was so exhausted from being pregnant and I remember laying on the couch watching Nate work on it and barely being able to keep my eyes open. This is so strange, but the music actually makes me a little nauseated. I remember hearing it over and over again while experiencing morning sickness. Such a funny memory.
Enjoy the video. I wish we could be celebrating in the Caribbean today. I feel like that would be totally appropriate. (Shalynna, I hope you especially enjoy the shots of the Cayman.)
we <3 you, Baby Sommers